We’ve been down this road before. Still feeling the remnants of New Year’s past as the calendar tells us, no silly this year is over, only one more day to go. Did you do something with it?
365 days gone, this time each feels lived in, maybe more days with vigor and enthusiasm than others. I’ve let some days slowly slip by with meaningless time on my couch binge watching Friday Night Lights and The Affair but I purposefully participated. Could I have accomplished more, of course, do I have minimal regrets, yes.
Tomorrow will be the starting over point, we of course do not need a new year to change, to do something new, but it has become a societal norm that we have all come to accept or tolerate.
Reflecting on the year, 2015 challenged me in the most unexpected ways. It made me look beyond my inner work and growth and look outward to my circle of friends, my environment and my activities. The aftermath, of going to the ER alone, was my wide-awake moment. I am not happy with my surroundings. I am not happy with the energy around me; it doesn’t not match how I want to feel inside. Energy is real and contagious.
At the beginning of the year, my only goal, was to own my choices. It’s been a struggle, a slow transition to walk away from things and people. We all have a journey and my journey is different from yours, neither is good or bad. The challenge, I am always faced with is letting go. I hold on to everything and everyone so tightly, until it snaps and then I am forced to unclasp my grip. This will always be my Achilles heel.
I am listening to my heart and intuition more than ever, and I am allowing myself to let go of friends, acquaintances, routines, habits- one at a time. I hope being aware and awake will continue to help along the way.
This year 2016, I am making space in my life and in my heart. I want to layer my foundation with courage and compassion.
“Keep some room in your heart for the unimaginable.” Mary Oliver